After over twenty years of working for the same company, I am being made redundant due to the retirement of my boss. This has put me in the rather unpleasant position of having to look for a new job. Don’t get me wrong, I consider myself a reasonably intelligent and hard-working individual, but, working so long for one person I’ve become a little … how shall I put it … comfortable, complacent even?
I’ve been quite lucky in the past, jobs have simply come along either through word of mouth or by being in the right place at the right time, however, the world seems to have moved on and I have a horrible suspicion that’s not going to be the case this time. Despite having over thirty years experience and being good at what I do, it appears I am qualified for nothing. The area in which I am searching, secretarial/PA/admin, has apparently been downgraded somewhat from the high status career it once was, into something on a level with office junior, and I have been rather rudely awakened to the fact my boss was actually being rather generous with my salary, and a job that will actually allow me to pay my bills and eat may be harder to find than I at first thought. When office managers are being paid less than the office cleaner, it makes me wonder if I’m applying for the right jobs.
I must admit to finding the whole process a rather scary and soul destroying one. As sole bread winner in my house the amount of pressure I am under is crushing, the very real fear of losing my home because I cannot afford the mortgage is frighteningly real and the responsibility of having a dependent child to provide for enormous. Of course I have registered with online employment agencies, yet they are also adding to the stress. I request secretarial/admin jobs in the Bury St. Edmunds area, and they send me details of sous chefs in Peterborough, welders in Nuneaton and field engineers in West Yorkshire – I have no idea what being one of those entails but apparently I get my own van, a must when you consider the commute to and from work every day! All joking aside, even if I get to interview stage that in itself is daunting – last time I had an interview A Flock of Seagulls was number one – and there’s the whole worry of what to wear and what to say to make them believe I’m the only person they should consider for the job.
The only bright side is it has made me even more determined to try and get the next novel published, and not just self-published, but by an actual, really truly publisher, one who will be able to promote the book and place it in bookshops where it can be seen and bought by the novel reading public. To that end I am really working hard now, re-typing and editing Cat’s Tale (making sure it is well and truly backed up, not just on the hard drive but on two USB sticks as well, just to be certain I can’t lose it all again). To be able to be a stay at home writer is the dream, so I guess it’s up to me to try and make it a reality.
Sorry this blog is a little doom and gloom, hopefully by the next one I’ll have more positive news for you. As always, please feel free to leave any comments on my Facebook page.